Jeremy Benson
My names Jeremy Benson. I've been through quite a bit, but I'm not going to say that I'm much different from other people. The truest way that I could put it is, I am that I am. I've been through some good times, and have had a lot of fun, but I've also been through some rough times that I'd never want to relive.
One thing I'd never say though is that to me my life has always seemed normal. At times its seemed anything but normal. Then again, what's normal? Is it measured by what the majority of the people experience? No, I don't think it is. My life is normal. Normal for someone who's talked to God, normal for someone who's experienced demons, normal for someone who's had group hallucinations (if they could be called that), normal for someone who's been drunk for months, or done more than 10 hits of ecstasy in a night, and my life is normal for someone that's held group Ouija sessions trying to 'lead spirits to the light'. Maybe my life is normal...
I was born in Saint John, and lived on Grand Manan. Growing up was fun, but I've always had a bad streak in me. My bad habits started quite young. I remember experimenting as a kid with smoking cigarette butts, but smoking wasn't something that caught on until years later. As I grew older I had experimented with painting white out on cigarettes and smoking them, a few years later with cooking Tylenol into crystals, and smoking it. After that it was smoking marijuana. From there it was ecstasy. After that came mushrooms, acid, daldudids, coke, crack, over the counter pills, and far too much alcohol.
Later in my life I started seeking God. I would pray every day, read from the bible, and try hard with Christianity. Then one night while I was at work the Lord started speaking to me. After that night my life had never been the same. Since then he has been with me, been my closest friend, and most loved friend of all that I would know.
Today I'm far from perfect, but I know I've become a better person than I had been in the years before. I caused a lot of turmoil for myself, for my family, and for my friends. I still struggle from time to time with things that shouldn't be an issue, but we're all human. One thing I can say for sure though, is that if I can help it, I'll never go back to where I was. Ever.
I know what some people would be thinking. "Come on, this guy admits that he's done drugs, and now he hears God?!" or quite simply "this guys one drugs!". Written in my book is reasons why I know for a fact that some of these things were done by God, and not simply products of a chemical imbalance. Once you read it you will see why I believe, but the question for non-believers is...Will you believe?